My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize...

Updating from my blackberry even though my laptop is right over my head. I'm much more comfortable where I am.

I am currently re-reading New Moon for the third time because I clearly have no life. I just saw the New Moon trailer last night and I must say that Taylor Lautner looks quite banging. I just wish he were older so I didn't feel like a perv. It's like a bunch of girls saying Nick Jonas is sexy, that is weird. Although the kid is pretty good looking...alright I'm done with the children.

Let's see, school is officially dunzo for this semester. I've gotten 3/4 of my final grades and so far I'm content. I got an A in speech, B+ in intro to theatre arts which surprised me, because I barely paid any attention at all in that class. The biggest shocker was a C+ in infancy and childhood. I'm not proud of the C+, but I am at the same time because I definitely thought I'd get lower than that. It was ridiculous trying to learn anything in that class when all the professor did was read information off power point slides too fast for us to copy down any notes. It irritated me and I ended up giving up on trying to listen to her. But I take my C+ and I'll wear it proudly on my transcript lol. Right now I'm just waiting for spanish which I'm not worried about, it should be a good grade. =) Possibly and hopefully in the A-B range.

iiiiiiiiiiiii want a Mac book =) I don't know why I chose to make that sing songy but I did. And I still want a mac book. I like my dell for the most part but it has its issues that I could do without and my point is that I want a mac book. The end.

Hmm, as for the title of the blog, I've been dealing with some internal clashes. I'm experiencing something I never though would ever happen and it's got me a little thrown off. I'm slowly but surely dealing with it, but still trying to figure it out. I'm at a standstill right now. And speaking of which I wrote a little something, very little. I haven't written any poetry in a long time so this was my attempt at it. I tried to rhyme some stuff, but it's kind of prose-ish. I wrote it late last night, or really early this morning?

Stranger

The roaring buzz of my unspoken thoughts
Has become the background music in my head
A single thought craving for attention
But my conscience leaves it unfed
A feeling bangs on the doors of my mind
But I fear the stranger on the other side
I cower, hoping to leave this force behind
The energy leaves me breathless
Like I'm running away from one thing,
But towards another too
I run until I get to the cross road,
What should I do?
Do I choose the person I've always been,
Or transform into the person I think I've become?
My thoughts are rambling against my will
The fork in the road is waiting,
But for now I am at a standstill...
-Liv Brock
June 1, 2009

Okay, enjoy. My thumbs hurt now. Ciao darlings. xoxo

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It's been a while...

Tomorrow I'm offcially done with classes for this semester...spanish and psych finals on Monday...I'm okay with the spanish but the psych one worries me. I'm gonna have to get some hardcore studying in before Monday.

I'd just like to throw this out there, I now understand why some guys are huge assholes, and why those assholes are hoes. Not insulting, just throwing out some respect. 

That's all I'm gonna say about that situation.

I don't even know anymore, I'm out. 

I could stay lost in this moment forever...

Hello, hello it's been a while...kinda sorta, not really but hello anyway. I'm currently listening to "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith, which I've posted about before. =]

Uh let's see...I just got done with a shit load of work.
Finale speech, which is a creative one, I did it about my poetry...blah blah
Two speech response papers
Last psychology paper

Needless to say I'm tired and I think I wanna read, which I'll do after this post.

What's up with me...uhm I was put in charge of One Luv Unity Fest which is a party WCCR has every year since last year and I hope it works out because I only have a short time to get everything set up seeing as it's on the 7th of May.

The TEP Masquerade boat party is coming up on the 2nd of May and I'm excited for that, I haven't partied in a while...

Let's see what my schedule is so far...there's only about 3 weeks left of school.

Monday 4/27- Class all day 8-8 and I have to register at some point between that....which reminds me I need to see what else is open right now so I can have an idea of what I can and can't take next semester.

Tuesday 4/28- Free, but I'll probably be doing school work, spanish homework and I have to start on a 7-10 page paper for theatre...kill me.

Wednesday 4/29- Class all day 8-8...giving last speech

Thursday 4/30- Usually I'd be at home, but I'm working WCCR's music festival during club hours between 12 and 2 pm then I'll be staying all day preparing for WCCR's B-Boy/DJ Battle which is the same day that night from 7-11pm...I'll also be working that.

Friday 5/1- Spanish class from 12-2, Comedy of Error play for theatre class I guess it starts at 7pm idk. I have to buy a ticket for that

Saturday 5/2- TEP's Masquerade Boat Party

Sunday 5/3- Free, but I'll probably be doing school work

Monday 5/4- Class all day 8-8...psychology paper due (it's done, so that's a relief)

Tuesday 5/5- I'll probably be at a movie screening doing my part for a speech group project...

Wednesday 5/6- Class all day 8-8...speech group projects, one page reports on project, and two speech response papers due....the response papers are done, thanks to my sudden feeling of productive ness this weekend....hopefully leaving early and going to see Raposo down at Crash Mansion

Thursday 5/7- Spanish homework in the day time....One Luv Unity Fest that evening from 7-1AM...party hardy

Friday 5/8- Spanish class 12-2pm....POSSIBLY going to the Erotic Poetry event at school, idk yet.

Saturday 5/9-Sunday 5/10- Free, probably doing school work

Monday 5/11- Class all day 8-8...leaving early to see Raposo at Blender Theater

Tuesday 5/12- Free, spanish homework

Wednesday 5/13- Class all day 8-8....7-10 page theatre paper due...last day of Speech, Theatre, and Psychology....woohoo...

Thursday 5/14- Free, spanish homework

Friday 5/15- Last Spanish class...woohoo...but aww I'll miss Prof. Retamoso, she's a good teacher. END OF SEMESTER....kind of

Saturday 5/16-Sunday 5/17- Free FINALLY...kind of I guess...preparing for finals

Monday 5/18- Spanish final at 10:30am and Psychology finale at 6pm END OF FRESHMAN YEAR!


Okay I'll end this here, ciao loves.

hehehe...

LMAO...everytime I see this thing it makes me laugh.

Here's some random stuffs from my old photobucket...

You're like an indian summer in the middle of winter...

My niece is driving me insane, she went to see Hannah Montana: The Movie when it came out and she keeps asking me if I want to see her do the Ho-Down, Throw Down...mind you she is 11 and like my height. It's a retarded dance...I'll stop there.

I believe this week I'm gonna go into the station so we can paint it (myself, Iolani, maybe Ebony if I can get a hold of her and I'm not sure who else.)

Blahhh blahhh I got a Twitter...stalk...er...follow me =) www.twitter.com/LivBrock
You can see my updates on the right hand side of this page above my "About Me" section.

Ugh my laptop is such a whore...there's a bunch of problems on it I don't even know what's wrong with it, but Christian is gonna let me borrow his portable hard drive so I can save my music, movies and pictures so I can restore this piece of shit. =) I really want a macbook, I told my mom that's what I want for my birthday so we'll see.

I'm not too sure what else to write about...my niece is standing in the corner of my room with her iPod on listening to Through The Fire and The Flames dancing, playing airguitar and singing loudly off key and saying "green red green red yellow yellow red red..." etc from the Guitar Hero game lol...she's a special case.

Here are some ear stuffs...I really like this Katy Perry song "Thinking of You" my favorite favorite favoriteee part is the second verse and chorus <3

"You're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, ohhh
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
What would you do if you were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes..."




Here are the Jesse McCartney songs I was talking about in my previous post off his rereleased album Departure: Recharged. Good stuff <3 I feel like during Oxygen and In My Veins, I should be giving someone a lapdance. =p

Body Language


Oxygen


In My Veins


Crash & Burn

FML makes me LOL

"Today I got back my math test. Instead of taking the time to mark the mistakes, my professor just circled the bottom half of the page and wrote "OMG." FML


Hahaha, that's horrible...that'd probably be something that happens to me, because unfortunately I suck at math.

Let's see...the financial aid office at my school is extremely retarded...everytime you speak to someone there they always have an attitude, I don't understand why...they make lives difficult...anyway yeah the check that I never got the first time was reissued and they didn't think it was necessary to tell me that when the check is reissued it gets sent to the bursar's office. So I've been constantly checking the mail like an asshole waiting for it...when it's been at school for I don't know how long...stupidos.

I'm not sure if I'm gonna use it for my tattoo or an outfot for the masquerade party in May.

What else is going on...AMC theatres are extremely gay. I was called back aftering applying and yeah sounded like I was going to get hired but since I have tattoos from the elbow down, it's a no no...and apparently it's against their policy to cover the tattoos with make up....I'd like to know WHY....that's fucking stupid...they're covered, you can't see them, problem solved...how are you gonna tell me what I can and can't do with make up that I bought to put on MY skin...asses.

Uhm, I believe we're painting the station this spring break...that should give me something to do, because glad as I am that there's no school, there's also nothing for me to do.

Uhmmm...I listened to Jesse McCartney's new songs from his recently rereleased album Departure: Recharged. The songs are alright, pretty good I guess. Some lyrics are kinda ehh whatever, but I give them a thumbs up. There's a track called "In My Veins" which makes him sound like a complete junkie, but it works considering the subject of the matter is talking about a person being like a drug to him.

Rascal Flatt's new album is also a thumbs up. Unstoppable, check it out. I'm currently listening to The Fray's second self-titled album, which I really like. The lead singer's voice is soothing. Check that out as well.

I don't know what else to write, I'm actually in the middle of painting my nails.
Again, I'm extremely random, I went from reading to being on the phone for about an hour to eating a cup noodle thinger then listening to 4 albums (Departure: Recharged, Unstoppable, The Fray) and then I'm listening to The Fray's first album "How To Save A Life" after this, because I've never actually heard it in its entirety. I'll probably pause something and continue reading. I never know exactly what to do with myself. I also have a game of solitaire and FML.com opened behind this window. =) Ciao

LOL @ Boy in red shirt

I was on PerezHilton.com today and he made a post about these kids dancing so I decided to give it a watch...LOLLLL at the little boy.



I'll update on what's going on with me sometime soon...tired for now. Ciao