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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Strange dreams...

Wtffffff...seriously okay this one was just extremely creepy and I really don't even get it. So I was going down to Georgia to visit my friend Jazmin and my god daughter and for whatever reason I had to meet them at one of the hospitals down there, but it really didn't even look like a hospital...Moreso like a big waiting room with little offices...so apparently we're in the maternity ward, if you could call this place that and I'm sitting around all these women and by this point Jazmin and Asiyah (her daughter, my god daughter) aren't anywhere around there anymore so I'm waiting and then I black out...when I wake up this nurse is handing me a really small pre-mature baby, no clothes, it's all bloody and like it was just born and I'm sitting in this chair like...um what the hell?...and she's like "this is your baby" and i'm like "since when? and why is it so small?" (I apparently couldn't tell if it was a boy or girl?) and she tells me that the baby is 25 weeks and I'm like "okay well is it gonna live? why isn't it in an incubator? why isn't it on oxygen?" like all these questions as to why I'm in a hospital and they're handing me a premature baby and not helping it. So she tells me "You have to keep it with you and it will get better." and that confused me, I kept telling her that made no sense. So I had to stay there and carry the baby in this tin box that looked like an ID case just a lot bigger and it had an angel engraved on the cover. I was told to keep checking it periodically to see if the baby's chest was rising to make sure it was still breathing and I'd see it get better. It was all so weird so I'm waiting around this hospital checking the box at different intervals of the day and I start to see the baby getting a little bigger and instead of being 'new born pink' like when she first handed it to me it was light skinned and still breathing so next time I checked it, I was told I could take it out for a little while and hold it and rock it...so I do as I'm told and the baby all of a sudden has on a blue onsie and a blue hat and I'm like "So it's a boy?" and they confirmed it (never looking at the genitals or anything, it was like they were invisible, they were there, but no one looked or saw them ever.) so I'm like "Okay, I have a son." so I start warming up to the idea and I'm carrying him around, he's still small but breathing fine and then he opens his eyes and he's got these big brown eyes and I just fell in love with this little angel so to speak I guess, idk...so he's getting healthier and bigger and they tell me I can take him home and I tell them I'm here visiting a friend, yet I still can't find Jazmin or Asiyah anywhere and for whatever reason I didn't have my cellphone to call her and I didn't have her number memorized so I couldn't use their phone to call her. So I get to leave and my mom is driving a van and I'm sitting with the baby in a carseat and I look over and he's still the same, light skin, small, still dressed in blue and sleeping. So I look away and I guess like new mothers tend to do they keep checking their babies every few mins/secs and what not so I look back at him and now he's completely different...bigger like the average new born, but he's no longer a he apparently? SHE now had on a pink outfit, a pink hat, and she was dark and I'm just like....What...the...fuck? and my mom all of a sudden is like "Do you know who the father is?" and i'm like "......yes...but that doesn't explain anything...wtf just happened..." and my mom gets furious and then I woke up...

What the hell with these dreams, like seriously? I don't understand...so freaky...

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