Strange dreams...

Wtffffff...seriously okay this one was just extremely creepy and I really don't even get it. So I was going down to Georgia to visit my friend Jazmin and my god daughter and for whatever reason I had to meet them at one of the hospitals down there, but it really didn't even look like a hospital...Moreso like a big waiting room with little offices...so apparently we're in the maternity ward, if you could call this place that and I'm sitting around all these women and by this point Jazmin and Asiyah (her daughter, my god daughter) aren't anywhere around there anymore so I'm waiting and then I black out...when I wake up this nurse is handing me a really small pre-mature baby, no clothes, it's all bloody and like it was just born and I'm sitting in this chair like...um what the hell?...and she's like "this is your baby" and i'm like "since when? and why is it so small?" (I apparently couldn't tell if it was a boy or girl?) and she tells me that the baby is 25 weeks and I'm like "okay well is it gonna live? why isn't it in an incubator? why isn't it on oxygen?" like all these questions as to why I'm in a hospital and they're handing me a premature baby and not helping it. So she tells me "You have to keep it with you and it will get better." and that confused me, I kept telling her that made no sense. So I had to stay there and carry the baby in this tin box that looked like an ID case just a lot bigger and it had an angel engraved on the cover. I was told to keep checking it periodically to see if the baby's chest was rising to make sure it was still breathing and I'd see it get better. It was all so weird so I'm waiting around this hospital checking the box at different intervals of the day and I start to see the baby getting a little bigger and instead of being 'new born pink' like when she first handed it to me it was light skinned and still breathing so next time I checked it, I was told I could take it out for a little while and hold it and rock it...so I do as I'm told and the baby all of a sudden has on a blue onsie and a blue hat and I'm like "So it's a boy?" and they confirmed it (never looking at the genitals or anything, it was like they were invisible, they were there, but no one looked or saw them ever.) so I'm like "Okay, I have a son." so I start warming up to the idea and I'm carrying him around, he's still small but breathing fine and then he opens his eyes and he's got these big brown eyes and I just fell in love with this little angel so to speak I guess, idk...so he's getting healthier and bigger and they tell me I can take him home and I tell them I'm here visiting a friend, yet I still can't find Jazmin or Asiyah anywhere and for whatever reason I didn't have my cellphone to call her and I didn't have her number memorized so I couldn't use their phone to call her. So I get to leave and my mom is driving a van and I'm sitting with the baby in a carseat and I look over and he's still the same, light skin, small, still dressed in blue and sleeping. So I look away and I guess like new mothers tend to do they keep checking their babies every few mins/secs and what not so I look back at him and now he's completely different...bigger like the average new born, but he's no longer a he apparently? SHE now had on a pink outfit, a pink hat, and she was dark and I'm just like....What...the...fuck? and my mom all of a sudden is like "Do you know who the father is?" and i'm like "......yes...but that doesn't explain anything...wtf just happened..." and my mom gets furious and then I woke up...

What the hell with these dreams, like seriously? I don't understand...so freaky...

Do you catch your breath when I look at you?

Holaaaaa

So, I'll admit it, my crush, is irritating me. =] I don't know what much more there is to say about it. Usually I get all these random texts throughout the day and night and now I get nada...I texted to see how he was and what not and didn't get a response sooooo idk...I'm like wtf? but whatever.

So I finally allowed myself to finish Breaking Dawn a week or two ago and I think the entire series was great, I wish there were more. Apparently Meyer is supposed to be writing Edward's version of 'Twilight' called 'Midnight Sun' so hopefully she does, that'd be cool to read it from another perspective. Since I have absolutely nothing to do this break, I figured I'd read the series over. And I thought it'd be boring and I wouldn't wanna read it, but I actually feel like I haven't read the book yet, I'm about halway done through 'Twilight' and I'm reading it with no problem. =]

Ugh, I feel fat and gross right now and I don't even know why (aside from the fact that I am fat and gross lol) I think it's because I'm here all day and don't do anythingggg ahh, so annoying. I think tomorrow I'm gonna go do some shopping for new clothes for the upcoming semester so that should be refreshing.

This Saturday I'm going to the OS Art House downtown with Fallon to see Raposo, so that's something to do, hopefully it's a good time.

Aside from all of that nothing much is really up with me right now...I guess we'll see when school starts back up.

Here's some ear candy...relevent? Hmm, the chorus is.