I could stay lost in this moment forever...

Hello, hello it's been a while...kinda sorta, not really but hello anyway. I'm currently listening to "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith, which I've posted about before. =]

Uh let's see...I just got done with a shit load of work.
Finale speech, which is a creative one, I did it about my poetry...blah blah
Two speech response papers
Last psychology paper

Needless to say I'm tired and I think I wanna read, which I'll do after this post.

What's up with me...uhm I was put in charge of One Luv Unity Fest which is a party WCCR has every year since last year and I hope it works out because I only have a short time to get everything set up seeing as it's on the 7th of May.

The TEP Masquerade boat party is coming up on the 2nd of May and I'm excited for that, I haven't partied in a while...

Let's see what my schedule is so far...there's only about 3 weeks left of school.

Monday 4/27- Class all day 8-8 and I have to register at some point between that....which reminds me I need to see what else is open right now so I can have an idea of what I can and can't take next semester.

Tuesday 4/28- Free, but I'll probably be doing school work, spanish homework and I have to start on a 7-10 page paper for theatre...kill me.

Wednesday 4/29- Class all day 8-8...giving last speech

Thursday 4/30- Usually I'd be at home, but I'm working WCCR's music festival during club hours between 12 and 2 pm then I'll be staying all day preparing for WCCR's B-Boy/DJ Battle which is the same day that night from 7-11pm...I'll also be working that.

Friday 5/1- Spanish class from 12-2, Comedy of Error play for theatre class I guess it starts at 7pm idk. I have to buy a ticket for that

Saturday 5/2- TEP's Masquerade Boat Party

Sunday 5/3- Free, but I'll probably be doing school work

Monday 5/4- Class all day 8-8...psychology paper due (it's done, so that's a relief)

Tuesday 5/5- I'll probably be at a movie screening doing my part for a speech group project...

Wednesday 5/6- Class all day 8-8...speech group projects, one page reports on project, and two speech response papers due....the response papers are done, thanks to my sudden feeling of productive ness this weekend....hopefully leaving early and going to see Raposo down at Crash Mansion

Thursday 5/7- Spanish homework in the day time....One Luv Unity Fest that evening from 7-1AM...party hardy

Friday 5/8- Spanish class 12-2pm....POSSIBLY going to the Erotic Poetry event at school, idk yet.

Saturday 5/9-Sunday 5/10- Free, probably doing school work

Monday 5/11- Class all day 8-8...leaving early to see Raposo at Blender Theater

Tuesday 5/12- Free, spanish homework

Wednesday 5/13- Class all day 8-8....7-10 page theatre paper due...last day of Speech, Theatre, and Psychology....woohoo...

Thursday 5/14- Free, spanish homework

Friday 5/15- Last Spanish class...woohoo...but aww I'll miss Prof. Retamoso, she's a good teacher. END OF SEMESTER....kind of

Saturday 5/16-Sunday 5/17- Free FINALLY...kind of I guess...preparing for finals

Monday 5/18- Spanish final at 10:30am and Psychology finale at 6pm END OF FRESHMAN YEAR!


Okay I'll end this here, ciao loves.

hehehe...

LMAO...everytime I see this thing it makes me laugh.

Here's some random stuffs from my old photobucket...

You're like an indian summer in the middle of winter...

My niece is driving me insane, she went to see Hannah Montana: The Movie when it came out and she keeps asking me if I want to see her do the Ho-Down, Throw Down...mind you she is 11 and like my height. It's a retarded dance...I'll stop there.

I believe this week I'm gonna go into the station so we can paint it (myself, Iolani, maybe Ebony if I can get a hold of her and I'm not sure who else.)

Blahhh blahhh I got a Twitter...stalk...er...follow me =) www.twitter.com/LivBrock
You can see my updates on the right hand side of this page above my "About Me" section.

Ugh my laptop is such a whore...there's a bunch of problems on it I don't even know what's wrong with it, but Christian is gonna let me borrow his portable hard drive so I can save my music, movies and pictures so I can restore this piece of shit. =) I really want a macbook, I told my mom that's what I want for my birthday so we'll see.

I'm not too sure what else to write about...my niece is standing in the corner of my room with her iPod on listening to Through The Fire and The Flames dancing, playing airguitar and singing loudly off key and saying "green red green red yellow yellow red red..." etc from the Guitar Hero game lol...she's a special case.

Here are some ear stuffs...I really like this Katy Perry song "Thinking of You" my favorite favorite favoriteee part is the second verse and chorus <3

"You're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, ohhh
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
What would you do if you were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes..."




Here are the Jesse McCartney songs I was talking about in my previous post off his rereleased album Departure: Recharged. Good stuff <3 I feel like during Oxygen and In My Veins, I should be giving someone a lapdance. =p

Body Language


Oxygen


In My Veins


Crash & Burn

FML makes me LOL

"Today I got back my math test. Instead of taking the time to mark the mistakes, my professor just circled the bottom half of the page and wrote "OMG." FML


Hahaha, that's horrible...that'd probably be something that happens to me, because unfortunately I suck at math.

Let's see...the financial aid office at my school is extremely retarded...everytime you speak to someone there they always have an attitude, I don't understand why...they make lives difficult...anyway yeah the check that I never got the first time was reissued and they didn't think it was necessary to tell me that when the check is reissued it gets sent to the bursar's office. So I've been constantly checking the mail like an asshole waiting for it...when it's been at school for I don't know how long...stupidos.

I'm not sure if I'm gonna use it for my tattoo or an outfot for the masquerade party in May.

What else is going on...AMC theatres are extremely gay. I was called back aftering applying and yeah sounded like I was going to get hired but since I have tattoos from the elbow down, it's a no no...and apparently it's against their policy to cover the tattoos with make up....I'd like to know WHY....that's fucking stupid...they're covered, you can't see them, problem solved...how are you gonna tell me what I can and can't do with make up that I bought to put on MY skin...asses.

Uhm, I believe we're painting the station this spring break...that should give me something to do, because glad as I am that there's no school, there's also nothing for me to do.

Uhmmm...I listened to Jesse McCartney's new songs from his recently rereleased album Departure: Recharged. The songs are alright, pretty good I guess. Some lyrics are kinda ehh whatever, but I give them a thumbs up. There's a track called "In My Veins" which makes him sound like a complete junkie, but it works considering the subject of the matter is talking about a person being like a drug to him.

Rascal Flatt's new album is also a thumbs up. Unstoppable, check it out. I'm currently listening to The Fray's second self-titled album, which I really like. The lead singer's voice is soothing. Check that out as well.

I don't know what else to write, I'm actually in the middle of painting my nails.
Again, I'm extremely random, I went from reading to being on the phone for about an hour to eating a cup noodle thinger then listening to 4 albums (Departure: Recharged, Unstoppable, The Fray) and then I'm listening to The Fray's first album "How To Save A Life" after this, because I've never actually heard it in its entirety. I'll probably pause something and continue reading. I never know exactly what to do with myself. I also have a game of solitaire and FML.com opened behind this window. =) Ciao

LOL @ Boy in red shirt

I was on PerezHilton.com today and he made a post about these kids dancing so I decided to give it a watch...LOLLLL at the little boy.



I'll update on what's going on with me sometime soon...tired for now. Ciao

It takes a while to learn to live in your own skin...

If you're in, you know I'm in. I'm ready and I'm willing. I aaaaaaaaammmmmmm....

Sorry...I'm listening to I Am by Bon Jovi right now.

Anyway, the other day I realized I haven't updated this thing in a while, so here goes.

It is currently 7:11AM and I am already in school at WCCR. (I have class at 8) I don't mind getting here an hour early, it gives me the chance to hopefully put something in my stomach and actually wake myself up. However, I got here a little extra early today. Usually my mom drops me off at the train station on her way to work and I get on the uptown A express anywhere between 6:20 and 6:40ish in the morning and I usually get to 145th ST around 7AM, then I get on the shuttle and get here between 7:05-7:15AM...anyway I don't know why I just typed that...I don't even think anyone reads this lol. If there are actually readers out there, comment and let me know. I appreciate it. Typically people don't listen to me, ever, so I guess this is just where I get out my ramblings and thoughts...

So last time I posted, I was very angry and hurt and sad, and now, I'm getting over it. I've decided that I'm not gonna let it bother me so much anymore, actually no, I think it's been done over so many times that the healing process is getting shorter and shorter to the point where I'm kinda numb about it. I don't really know how I feel anymore...I mean there are some obvious feelings, but I'm just tired of thinking about it, thinking about the future, thinking whatifs and stuff like that. Whatever, it's best to not even think of it, I don't have any control over the actions of others so it's all up to them.

OT: Let's Get Loud by Jennifer Lopez just came on in my playlist on the Mac and it made me laugh, I don't know why. I think I'm still tired.

Speaking of which, I could NOT get to sleep on my own last night at all! It was so frustrating. First, I was freezing then when I got kind of warm, I just kept tossing and turning. My mom had to give me some tylenol pill with codine in it, which, I'm actually going to look up wtf codine is, I know eventually, not sure what point ,taht I actually fell asleep. Long story short, I didn't get much sleep last night and that's no bueno for Liv. Sleep is definitely essential to the plan.

I've realized, and this isn't a new revelation, but, I'm extremely random. I don't think any of my posts or thoughts have any type of structure, nothing seems to get with what came before it, lol. I think I like it that way though, not knowing exactly what is next, the element of surprise is kind of exciting...depending on the circumstances however.

For me, there are (including today) three more school days left until spring break. This break is definitely over due. I'll probably end up sleeping as much as possible, well, no, I don't know...we'll see. I think I have some kind of sleep problem though, recently it's been hard for me to get to sleep. Hopefully I can get into the sleep and dream disorder class at some point my college career.

Again, speaking of which...it's really frustrating to know that come this August, I could've been a Junior...leaving me with only two years to go, had I not taken the year off after graduating from high school...sigh, oh well. Each year I'll complain that I should be in the next year...lol But whatever, if I had started when originally planned I probably wouldn't know half the people I know now, so for that it's all good.

I really really really wanna travel...like really. I've never been out of this country and I think that is necessary in someone's life. America is kinda cool, but too much of something is usually not good. Actually, first I wanna visit California, Los Angeles and San Francisco. Then, Hawaii, then move down to the Caribbean, visit some islands down there and go to Puerto Rico and maybe the Dominican Republic. I don't know if I have any reason to go to DR, but I figured sure why not? The resort area should be nice. I think before I go to Hawaii and the Caribbean I want to go to Europe, not sure why, I've just always wanted to go to Europe, but before I go to Europe, I definitely wanna visit California first, not sure why of that either. Within Europe I want to visit, England, Germany, France, Italy, Greece, Ireland and the Netherlands. Yeah, I know I don't speak 5 out of 7 of those places, but I still want to visit. =)  Hmm, I want to visit Japan, definitely, and Singapore. I still haven't decided if I want to visit China or not...I definitely want to visit Australia, even though it's probably hot as fuck and a half there...but still. I haven't decided if I wanted to go to Africa yet...lol. Anyway, pretty much I wanna visit all over the world...maybe when I actually have a career and the money to start...I'll be old as shit but I guess those are the best times to really live...although you should live throughout life and make it worth something.

Okay, this post has gotten wayyyy too long, longer than I intended, because again, I ramble. I have Speech soon, thankfully I've got 3 down and 1 to go, along with a group presentation...but for the most part I'm almost done. I just have NO clue at all what to write about for my creative/commemorative speech due in a month. Alright, before I begin again, ciao.