Sing to me the plans that you have for me over again...

Monday morning I was walking to the M8 bus and this spanish man with a walker stops me and asks where Astor Place is and how he can get there. He wasn't an old man so I instantly wondered, what was wrong with him and for what reason did he need this walker. I tell him how to get there via walking and he says "I have an ulcer, I can't walk there." and so I understood. I told him he could get on the M8 and take it to fourth avenue. He thanks me and I proceed across the street to wait for the bus, I turn my iPod on and go about my morning, or so I thought. As I'm standing there I see this man in my peripheral vision and he stops near me and sits on the walker (it was one of those with the seats attached) and he looks at me and starts talking. So I shut my iPod off and I asked him what it was he said and from that moment on I learned stuff about him you wouldn't generally learn about someone in the first 20 minutes or so of meeting them. I learned that since he has an ulcer his intestines are all screwed up and his bowel movements can't exactly be controlled or held for that matter. He tells me this brief story of how a few days ago he was trying to keep it in until he got to his apartment but it just wasn't going to happen. It was at night and apparently no one was really around so he had to squat between a car and a motorcycle. He continued with "I'm not a homophobic, you like what you like." and then told me how a visibly "butch" woman saw him and said "I should kick you in the face." to which he responded with the likes of "Of all I've been through, you're going to kick me in the face?" he then told her if she kicked him in the face he'd grab her by her scrawny neck and shove her into the pile he just left on the street and she'd be wearing it as make up. Just to emphasize his anger he followed with "If you're going to look and talk to me like a man, I'm gonna treat and kick your ass like a man." or something of that nature. I honestly didn't think it was necessary for her to say she should kick him in the face, of course someone defacating on the street would catch me off guard and turn me off as well but you never know what someone is going through. I learned that he's been shot about 10 times throughout his life, there were wound scars on his hands and arms of which I could see. He was on various drugs for a while. After his brother died he became an alcoholic but has been through counseling and rehab for his alcohol and substance abuse. He asked me if I was on my way to work and I told him that I wasn't, I was actually on my way to school. He asked what I studied and I told him I was hoping to get a Psychology degree. "That's good, a lot of money." he said. After that he told me about how he met his second wife, apparently she was one of his counselors during his alcohol and drug addiction and even though it was against the rules, they fell in love. They went to Vegas and got married then skinny dipped and partied with a bunch of people afterwards. Now of course I don't know if any of this is made up, it could very well be, but for whatever reason I kept talking to this man, well I kept listening to him. As the bus was approaching I thought our conversation was over and he started moving towards the back of the bus so the driver could let him up on the backdoor lift. I got onto the bus and took my usual seat up front. When he was on the bus and situated he signaled me over. Any normal person would've ignored it and stayed put but for some reason I got up and I sat next to him. I don't wanna say I felt bad for him because I don't think he was looking for pity in any way, I just think he needed someone to talk to and I didn't mind being that person even if it was for the short amount of time it was. Somtimes all someone needs is to just let it all out and all they want is someone to listen to them. I gave him some input where I felt necessary but other than that I let him talk. He told me that he thought it was hard to meet people nowadays and I told him that I think some people set their standards way too high to make it impossible to meet anyone and that people are extremely too superficial. Listening to him I got a little sad and all I did was want to give him a hug but I refrained, I thought that would be a little weird. While he spoke I noticed a hint of sadness and hurt in his pretty light brown/hazel eyes. As we approached my stop he asked me my name and I told him. "Olivia? That's nice." he said. I asked his name and he told me it was Anzel (I don't know if I'm spelling that right) and that it was a Jewish name. "If I was born during the Holocaust, Hitler would've thrown me in the oven." which I actually did laugh at because he was reinacting what that scene would've been like "No!" he would shout "I'm Puerto Rican! I speak Spanish!" and then he said something in Spanish that I can't remember and it was honestly funny the way he joked about it. "Well, we'll probably see eachother again." he told me and I smiled and nodded. The bus came to my stop and he wished me a good day and I returned it. He was honestly a very nice guy, with problems of course, but a genuinely nice person. I hope I do see him again, just so I know he's doing okay. This short but healthy conversation I had with him reassured me that Psychology is the career path that I want to be in. Not because it's financially rewarding but I love the idea of trying to help people in anyway that I can. With small problems, with big problems, medical problems...if I can't physically do something I'm there to listen. Sometimes all you need is someone to talk to.

Wherever you are Anzel, take care buddy.


This song is in one of my favorite movies of all time "A Walk To Remember" and I love it, it's stuck in my head and I guess it's necessary.

Me step inna di club, a dance rub a dub...

So SMC's halloween party was funnnnn while it lasted, I ended up leaving a little early cause someone was pissing me off and my friends wanted to go...oh well. I had some fun. Danced so much my legs are sore! haha it's all good though, it was a good time. Looking forward to next year's halloween party. =] Don't really have many pictures from the party, but that's okay.

Apparently WCCR has this One Love Unity fest that celebrates all cultures, and it's a party, and I'm kinda excited for that cause this time I'll get to be part of it. =] It's in April though, so far, but def something like look forward to.

I'm pretty tired. I read half of Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston today for World Humanities. I hate that class, but I will admit this is so far the better of the 8 books we have to read this semster. The first four were not good at all. I actually just got done watching the ABC movie version of it starring Halle Berry. It was pretty good I suppose. I'll use that just in case I don't really feel like finishing the book, but it's not that bad at all.

Class all day tomorrow and I should go to sleep, but I think I'll make some tea and watch a movie. Ciao.

Here's a song. It's the first one I remember dancing to Friday night. I have no clue what the other ones were =] I was a bit intoxicated.

Rock and roll hey, don't you know baby...

Salsa Mambo's Halloween party is tonightttt, woohoo. I'm ready to party. The only thing I'm not looking forward to is actually getting everyone together cause people are usually late or not ready and blah blah blah, but we'll see how we pull this off.
Ugh I'm starvingggg I just bought some pasta and now I'm waiting for the water to boil, which it should hurry because I actually should be getting ready right now. This should be fun, hopefully...we'll see. I'll update tomorrow sometime.

Blahh I have to start my psych paper that is due Monday, good luck to me. ha.

Let's see, nothing much has been up, hung out with Tina, Mike, and Mark last weekend that was fun. We played this drinking game, kind of like "I Declare War" but instead, whoever threw down the lowest card had to take a shot of vodka or rum and whoever threw down a joker, everyone else had to take a shot. It was fun. The pictures around the post are from that night, it's not all of them, but the ones I like.

Ugh [rant] I somehow gained my freshman 15, fuck you weight. I think I know why though, because since I barely eat regular food anymore I have to rely on the venting machine crap and that's all horrible stuff....blahh... [/rant]

So random, but I've been having such weird pregnancy dreams. Like I think four in total and I don't even get itttt. The first three were a while ago. The first was, I was at a Raposo show and I was in the bathroom looking at my belly in the mirror and my belly button kept popping out? And like some friends were like "You're pregnant" and I was like "...WHAT?" and someone said something about how when they were pregnant their belly button popped out...strange. The second, apparently I lived in like a Target or Walgreens or something and my room was this HUGE aisle of pregnancy tests and I kept taking them (I don't know how I managed to pee so much) and they all had big bold red plus signs on them and I was running all through the store screaming. The third dream, I was actually trying to breast feed a baby?!...yeah...if you're thinking 'wtf?'..I thought so too. And the final one was like two nights ago, I could actually feel my uterus like getting bigger and my abdomen started to stick out and I could feel something moving inside me, such freaky shit. I wonder what they mean??

Anyway, I'm gonna go check to see if this water is boiling. Ciao!

Here's some ear candy, I heard this song a few times today and it's stuck in my head.

I'm looking for someone, but not just anybody...

I thought that line was appropriate.
I think people, I'm not gonna even say guys, people need to reevaluate themselves, because seriously....what the fuck? I'm not gonna even rant in this posting, I'm just simply gonna say...stop being pathetic. I'm definitely not trying to be cocky or anything like that, but I'm starting to see that I'm just too good for some people...they really don't even know who I am and don't even try to find out.

Anyway, I would say TGIF, but it's Saturday. I should've posted yesterday but I didn't so...thank god it's the weekend. I just want this next week of school to go buy quickly so I can party at the halloween party on Friday. Excited that it's in the Great Hall because I absolutely loveeee that place and I'll get to enjoy it with the crazy kids at my school, Tina, Mike, Ebony, Jazmin and Leonard. Such a gorgeous hall. Should be some fun.

Um let's see what's up this weekend, nothing really...was supposed to get my new door but idk if that's happening this weekend, lame.

Good note, I'm going to hang out tonight with some real friends of mine whom I've missed dearly.


Who remembers the movie On The Line with Lance Bass and Joey Fatone? So cheesy, but I guess it was cute, I just watched it and I remembered this song I loved from when it came out...have a listen.

Can we just kill all mosquitoes?

Really...what purpose do they have in life? Annoying little shits. I seriously have about 6 bites on one leg...is that necessary?

Anyway, that was my rant...I just opened my window and it smells like spam? Ew? It's making me nauseous.

I just got done with some psychology homework that I waited until today to do and it's due tomorrow, which is fine, cause it's done and really shouldn't have taken half the day that it did to do...but yeah, anyway...not much is really up...next week is the Salsa Mambo club's halloween party at school and I'm looking forward to it, it should be fun.

I met a cute french kid, and he has a little accent, the end. =]

I just thought I should post something considering I haven't written in a few days.
Funny thing, for my second paper in Web Discourse we either have to write a 5-7 page paper or blog about a topic that's important to us...or that's not...really it doesn't matter what we blog about, just an issue...we can either be real about it or pretend, which should be interesting. I'll probably blog, seems a little easier, then there's a 2 page paper explaining why we chose what we did and blah blah blah...anyway I've gotta run to the store then come back and scratch my mosquitoe bitten leg off.
Ciao...or au revoir rather <3.

I'm hooked on you, baby can't you see? ...hahaha...

So, last night was the Raposo show at Blaggard's Pub. Good stuff, the show was really good, the crowd was awesome, drinks were flowing and yeah it was def a success. Kudos to Raposo. It was such a random night. Joey Page a singer from Florida was there which was cool, he's such a chill kid. Adorable too, might I add. The most random thing ever, Matt Ballinger came haha, for some reason I thought this was so funny. It was all good though, he's a chill kid too. It was rather ironic because just yesterday morning I was going through my iTunes and I scrolled passed the Dream Street songs and I was like "Matt's the only one I haven't met." and there we go. However, I have not been able to get a picture with Mr. McCartney, little fucker. =] jk. Anyway, yeah it was just a really random yet, fun night.

Let's see, uhm, I got a B- on my Psych paper, which I'm accepting because that paper was ridiculous, well the math part was, that's probably what screwed me up. I'd say I'm doing pretty well in that class so I'm glad. I have another paper due on 27th of this month that I'm not looking forward to starting anytime soon. I have a Computer Literacy Autobiography for the second part of my English class, stupid, I swear. This should be easy though, definitely easier than the Literacy Autobiography, like I really remember how I learned to read and write...please. I should probably make an appointment at the writing center to go over my paper for the first part of the English class, since it's mandatory? I don't know. Blah I feel like I have so much work I'm forgetting about...I have to go over each class' syllabus. And blahhh that I have a World Humanities midterm soon...fuck my life...that class is so bogus.

For anyone struggling with weight issues, like you think you're too fat, no not the skinny girls who think they're fat...I mean the thick girls who don't feel comfortable in their bodies. I can relate, but you should check out the book Good In Bed by Jennifer Weiner. Good stuff.

Considering the title of this blog and in the spirits of last night's company, here's a blast from the past.

My hair smells like vanilla?

Yeah I don't know...anyway...I have a coldddddd. Go figure, the day I only wear a shortsleeve jacket with a cami underneath it's like the coldest day of the week. I just looked up how to get rid of a stuffed nose and there was this like chinese pressurepuncture thing and I did it and it actually did relieve my stuffed nose for a bit...it was interesting. Let's see let's see, what's new with me. Took my first psychology test on Friday and I got a 94, I think that's pretty badass. Didn't have school last Monday or Wednesday, that was sweet. Don't have school this Wednesday, thank you Jewish holidays. I don't have class on Monday because of Columbus Day...half yay Columbus and half fuck you Columbus, or no not even, fuck you City College...or CUNY? I don't know but Monday we don't have class, BUT Tuesday, when I usually don't have class, there's a Monday schedule, MEANING I'll have two long days from 12:30-9:15 back to back Tuesday and Wednesday, so that's pretty lame. What can you do? Nothing, but curse CUNY. Uhm, they should probably give us the exact date of which the seminars start, because I've gone there about twice and the teacher hasn't shown up and I rather not waste my life going this Friday and they still don't show up. There is a cute kid in my seminar class though, he's fun to look at. It's supposed to be a 7 week thing, once a week apparently starting in October and ending in December...so my guess is, it either starts the third of fourth week of October...I have no clue, but they're not very helpful. Um this friday, I have my Psychology recitation class, then I'll probably be at the WCCR (the college radio station I'm part of) for a bit then going to see Raposo at Blaggard's Pub which should be a fun time again. Speaking of WCCR, we have a few events coming up which should be a sweet time. The Salsa Mambo club of CCNY is having a Halloween party in the Great Hall which should be cool, Great Hall is freaking GORGEOUS, love that place. Our DJs are providing the musicaa, yay. On November 7th we're having an "Old School B-Boy" contest. Break dancers, DJs, graffitti artists, all on top of the Marshak Hall on the tennis courts, that should be fun too...yay. Then, there’s some charity Thanksgiving event at some club down here, downtown, but I’m not sure about that, all I know is that the cover is you donate some cans of food. Eh, other than that, not much is going on with me…I think I’m gonna go lay down and read for a bit, maybe do some homework, I’m not feeling too hot.

This song has been stuck in my head, enjoy.

I'm sharing a drink with a memory and a laugh with an empty seat...

So, last night I went to a little get together and needless to say, I was very intoxicated. It was kind of funny, I think that's the drunkest I've ever been, sad, but true. My weapon of choice was Bacardi Superior and cranberry and I actually stuck to it instead of jumping around to different things like I usually do. Of course with the exception of a few blackcherry Bacardi jello shots and two shots of Hennessy. Yeah, you're probably thinking "Wow, what an alcoholic." but really I'm not. I only really started drinking about two years ago, which is when I first got drunk. I've had alcohol before that, but never enough to get drunk. Anyway, last night was kind ridiculous, lol. I was starving before I left my house but didn't have time to get anything to eat so yeah, drinking on an empty stomach, I don't recommend it. Especially if you don't have a high tolerance for alcohol, luckily I do. If you're a lightweight and you don't drink responsibly, you'll end up with your head in the toilet. I've only thrown up from drinking on one occasion at a friend's birthday gathering. Someone I hadn't seen in forever told me I was too quiet and kept bringing me rum and cokes and then I had a beer and a half and some vodka...yeah...do NOT mix liquors, trust me on this one. And yeah, that night ended on a bad note, but I don't regret it, that's one lesson learned. Anyway, back to the alcohol tolerance. People watch me drink and they're like "Goddamn." Eh, what can I say? I'm not a lightweight at all. However, Bacardi Superior does its job. So after I left the gathering last night I was nervous about walking home, because usually, and this may sound weird but even drunk I can walk a better straight line than when I'm sober. Yesterday, I couldn't walk right at all. I had to like concentrate on the lines in the sidewalk. I was so glad when I finally made it to my apartment I was so tired by then. It was only about 3 something in the morning, it was so early. (Yes, early.) Time was going soooooo slow! I had just learned in Psychology that alcohol is a depressant, no freaking kidding, each time I looked at my phone for the time it'd be minutes from when I last checked even though it felt like an hour or two. I managed to take my make up off and take out my contacts successfully. When I attempted this that one occasion where I threw up I had so much trouble getting my contacts out that I scratched my eyeballs and they were red. I sat here a while trying to wait it out because I seriously thought that I wouldn't wake up this morning. But alas, here I am. I'm grateful that I don't get hangovers. So, if you're gonna drink, do it socially, eat, and do it responsibly.


I think this song is appropriate for this post. Check out Raposo @ Myspace.

Brand new car, brand new feet, brand new seats, brand new smell...

Yes, yes...the title says it all. After my mom's van died completely she donated it and today she...ermm WE (:-p) got a new car. It's a 2009 Ford Focus and it's love. Haha I took a set of keys, but I should probably get my license first...that'd be best. For now I'll test drive it until I'm ready to take my road test...but let's just take a look at this ebony beauty shall we?

(Black instead of red)

Too much Beyonce? I'll say...

Okay, let's see here...my initial reaction was "What...the...f.ck...?" I thought I'd laugh during this video, but I just found myself shaking my head. Trust me, I'm the most open-minded person ever, but if this kid doesn't grow up to be the biggest voguing diva of all time, I don't know what he'll make of himself. What the hell....haha okay now I'll laugh...but I mean really...poor kid, he just goes into those splits so gracefully.

Questions, comments, concerns? Feel free.

Frozen grapes, Secret Life of Bees, Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist and Womanizer

In of my classes we had to analyze a blog and the one I chose was a pro-Ana blog, the blogger always mentioned how she had half a cup of frozen grapes. I googled frozen grapes and apparently they're a hit with a lot of people. People say it makes them sweeter and they're good for when you're on a diet. Well I bought a bag of grapes and froze them overnight, they're interesting I'll admit. Pretty tasty, but hard to eat if you have sensitive teeth like I do. They don't freeze all the way through so the inside are somewhat firm but more slush-like. I guess I give them a thumbs up. They take a little time to eat because they're so cold, so enjoy. Better yet, once you take them out of the freezer, let them sit for a few minutes so they can defrost a bit, it makes it a little easier. =)

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When I was in 10th grade my earth science teacher gave me a book to read, The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd. Long story short, a young caucasian girl and her african american maid run away and seek refuge with three honey making sisters. Anyway I thought the book was really good and now....dun dun dun of course they're making a movie for it that's out on October 17, 2008. I was a little upset at first, because I felt that a film would ruin it. However, now I'm a little interested in seeing what comes of it, considering it's been about four years since I've read the book. Some big celebrities starring in the movie are Dakota Fanning (Lilly Owens), Jennifer Hudson (Rosaleen Daise), Queen Latifah (August Boatwright) and Alicia Keys (June Boatwright). I guess I'm looking forward to seeing it. I really did like the book. If you ever have the time go check it out.

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Another book I read sometime last year was Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist by Rachel Cohn and David Levithan. I really liked this book as well, sure it's a teenish book but hey that's what I like. =) Typical, boy meets girl, fall for eachother blah blah blah...anyway, you should read it. It's cute. Anyway, this is another book to movie deal. The movie comes out this Friday (October 3, 2008) and I actually wanna see it, and I need to find someone to go see it with, because I don't go to the movies alone. One thing I'm notttttttt looking forward to is that they pretty much switched the main beginning of the book. If you've read it, you know what I'm talking about. Nick asks Norah to be his girlfriend for five minutes so Tris (Nick's ex-girlfriend) doesn't see him alone. Well, in the movie they swap that and Norah asks Nick instead. I thought that was stupid, but let's see what they do with it. Another thing, while Nick's bandmates are bringing Norah's friend home, they get lost. In the movie, they lose her. I think I like that idea better, it looks funny from the commercials. (which I just so happen to hear on the TV as I type this) So yeah, that's that.
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Now for some musica. The latest from Britney Spears, I'm sure if not all, mostly everyone has heard Britney's new single "Womanizer." I must say, I kinda dig it. I'm SO glad that you hear more of her natural voice rather than that animated digitized garbage on her 'Blackout' album. Ugh, seriously that CD disppointed me. HOPEFULLY we'll get a ballad or two on Brit's next album. That was the main thing that turned me off of 'Blackout.' Anyway, 'Womanizer' is yet again another one of those dance/pop songs but it's not that bad at all, I don't change the station when it's on, so that's a good sign. I'm looking forward to seeing what else Britney has coming for us. She's looking much better these days, kudos Brit.

Take a listen to the song below.

Womanizer - Britney Spears